Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth! :)
I LOVE Despicable Me movie. My boyfriend introduced me to this movie a year ago and since we found out they are working on another one, we couldn’t wait to see it :) We went to the movies last week to see this and we LOVED IT. What I loved about it the most (except Minions, who are FREAKING AMAZING!!!) was this song, Happy. I heard it/saw on youtube about a week before the movie and I felt in love with that song. I have never heard a happier song and for some reason when I heard it, I couldn’t stop smiling and felt weird warm feeling inside and also tears in my eyes (yeah, too emotional, I know…) Check the song out, you will love it (if not, your heart is made of stone…):
Okay, but I am not gonna write about happy songs and cartoon movies :))) It is just to get you in the “happy” mood ;)
I am currently on 21 Day Sugar Detox, which in short is this protocol that is supposed to help you get rid of sugar addictions. Kinda like Whole30, but even more restrictive. (well, Level 3 is, Level 1 even allows some whole grains…but for us old paleo dogs, Level 3 is the only option) ;) Recently (before 21DSD) I was pretty piggie about food. I was doing b-fast, lunch and dinner paleo as always, but had LOTS and LOTS of treats, paleo and non paleo. Yeah, I was a pig. I blogged about that too. I realize that I am really the kind of person who complains about not seeing the results of a work that had not been done. Complaining about not loosing fat while still eating a lot of crap. A LOT. Wanting immediate results even though we all know these are NOT POSSIBLE. So I rx’ed this detox to myself. I wanted to do it for quite a while, but always had an excuse for not doing it. But after my last unsuccessful Whole30, I was NOT READY TO FAIL MYSELF AGAIN. So I jumped into the sugar detox the day I started my 90 day challenged (also blogged about that). I was worried that lack of sugar will put me into bad mood swings, exhaustion and low energy, BUT I am experiencing a complete oposite of that!!! Let me go into details here…
For the past few days I am feeling this ultimate feeling of HAPPINESS. I woke up one morning (I believe it was Saturday 13th July) and I felt so warm and free and peacefull inside, I was laying in bed with my boy, we were smiling at each other as we do every single morning and seeing his smiling eyes as a first thing after opening my own eyes was so amazing. I enjoyed every second of our morning. I got up and made us amazing breakfast – Avocado Cream Deviled Eggs from Gather, we ate it together, then made coffee and watched Fort Boyard on TV and the happy feeling didn’t go away. I realized our breakfast looks way too good and I ran to our room and grabbed a camera before we ate it all :D With a camera in my hands I took like a billion pictures of one egg :D and it was like that camera went alive in my hands. I realized how much I miss taking pictures with a regular camera! Lately it was all about quick access to Instagram with poor quality cellphone cam or my tablet (better quality, but still not comparable to our camera), and when snapping pictures of that poor little delicious egg half, I felt love in photographing all over again. I grabbed a Gather cookbook and also took some pictures of it. I am not a huge master of the photography, I don’t even know the basic “rules” or techniques, I don’t know anything about filters, macros, lighting and all that nerdy stuff, but I LOVE taking pictures of things! I love seeing nice things and capturing their beauty on a picture. Back in Prague I photographed our meals A LOT, camera was with me everywhere. Nowadays it is locked in a drawer with empty batteries and my online gallery of meals is not expanding. I have a perfect huge window in my old kitchen in Prague with lots of natural sunlight and white walls, so pictures were almost perfect (for my liking at least), I don’t have that luxury here (honestly, kitchen in this house is like the darkest room in here with the crappiest lightning ever). But I miss it!!! I promised myself to carry my camera with me more often and to TAKE PICTURES AGAIN!!! And after this decision, I felt even happier!
After breakfast, we did another silly-crazy-wonderful thing. We went outside to the garden, took our shoes off and walked barefoot in the wet cold grass. We walked a bit, laughed, hugged and kissed, holding hands, enjoying the energy from the ground pouring into our bare feet. A few minutes were enough for us to feel super energized, happy and positive for DAYS!!! We have to do this more often, it was so strangely freeing…
Since that day, positive energy did not leave me. Only on Monday, when aunt Irma arrived, I felt really bad and even had some sweet cravings (but didn’t eat anything!), but again on Tuesday my super positive mood was back. Today at work (Friday, as I am writting this), I played a Despicable Me soundtrack in my portable mp3 player (after hours of listening to Balance Bites podcasts I needed some music!) and when the HAPPY song started, my eyes filled up with tears (seriously, what is wrong with me????) and I started smiling, again with that weird happy feeling inside. I was dancing around the hall (luckily nobody was there to see me, lol), laughing, smiling and all that while I was still working with a laser cutting machine :D I was very fast at work today thank to my positive attitude and I did a lot of labels today (total of 1800 today!!!), with super wide smile on my face and an urge to share my happiness with someone. I realized I need to blog about this and also examine a little bit WHAT IS CAUSING THIS WEIRD BUT WONDERFUL TRANSITION??? I mean, I am naturally very positive and friendly person, but I also have my days when I just don’t feel like doing anything, talking to anyone and I just wanna sleep or read or listen to the music, but lately I feel like I wanna hug the whole world and sing out loud!!!
I wanted to write a separate blogpost about the new book I am reading, but I never review a book before reading it all (that I why I didn’t review a Gather book on Amazon yet, even though I KNOW it is amazing, but it doesn’t seem really “honest” to me to give a 5 star review after just opening the book and seeing wonderful pictures. I mean, the book IS amazing and I will for sure give it a full stars review ONCE I AM DONE READING IT and cooking more than just Deviled Eggs!!!) so this will have to wait, BUT I can tell you now that Mark Sisson’s last book Primal Connection is probably the one thing that is responsible for my current happy and positive state of mind.
I have never been into any spiritual stuff or “connecting with your inner self” or “connecting with nature” and all that jazz, BUT this book turned on some kind of switch inside of me and made me see the whole world in a completely different light. I am not even halfway done with it though. I didn’t even like Mark Sisson that much before, I mean, I love his website, I read Primal Blueprint but for some reason I didn’t really click with him as a person, but that is all my fault because all I saw was that he sees a glass of red wine on a paleo diet like an “okay thing” and I am totally against any alcohol ever in anyones life. So it was more from a selfish reasons, he is otherwise great and I admire his work so much. I actually think I am gonna read Primal Blueprint once again after I will finish Primal Connection and another book I have in a queue (Poor Food, Rich Food). I even ordered a new Grok rubber bracelet for me and my boyfriend (because we love Grok!) I have the Primal Connection book only in my Kindle, but I already ordered a regular book from Amazon and I can’t wait to get it and read again and again.
A lot of the stuff he talks about in the book makes so much sense. For example, what really resonated with me was the fact that we as humans care too much about the future, about what is gonna happen tomorrow, on the weekend, next summer, in two years, and we completely forget to care about the present moments. That was a major eye opener for me. As you know, our current living situation is not exactly all rainbows and butterflies – we live in a small room in my boyfriend’s parent’s house, share bathroom, kitchen, fridge and garden, which is very limiting and stressful (the word PRIVACY is not really in this house’s vocabulary, lol) and all I was thinking about for the past few months was how we are gonna get our own place very soon, we will move away from here, get our own apartment and will make our own home, will only enjoy each others company, will have no stress at all, will be able to make out whenever we can, will be able to shower, cook and grocery shop whenever we want, will be able to walk around naked and play loud music… one day, soon, until Christmas, maybe next year… one day… very soon… Too much focus to the (still quite distant) future and no appreciation for the current moments. I didn’t even fully enjoy our rare moments together, outdoor lunches or just reading sessions in the garden together, because I was so focused on our future. After reading that chapter in the book, it really hit home for me and it was like a wake up call. Without even realizing it, I started to enjoy every single moment. Everytime we talk together, every smile, every joke we make, every meal we share together, every walk we take, our morning hugs, our evening hugs, our night hugs (yeah, we hug a lot…)… That is also a good topic in the book, the importance of a human touch. We are not intimate very often (honestly, we are lucky if we have an empty house for ourselves once a month), but we spend a lot of time naked with each other without even you know… something happening :D We sleep naked, take baths and showers together, touch each other very often without being sexual, so we don’t really miss the “ultimate touching moments” :D but it was not until I read that particular chapter that I started to fully realize the importance of these moments, the magic of a human touch, the way it elevates my mood everytime we just hold each others hand. I am giving my boyfriend 100% full attention everytime he speaks to me, which is also not something I was always doing (you know, when someone is talking to you when you are on Facebook and you kinda pretend to listen but in a minute you have no idea what he was talking about because you were just reading this message from Indre). Now I stop everytime he starts talking to me, look at him and listen. Because he always, ALWAYS does the same for me and he deserves the same.
Another thing that I got from the book was that barefoot grass walking. Even though we walk outside a lot and we take trips, hikes and appreciate nature, we got really “disconnected” from Mother Earth. Just that barefoot walking on a bare ground felt amazing and it filled us with joy. I own a pair of Vibram Fivefingers and after reading the “barefoot chapter” in the book, I started to wear them again. I have to start slowly, because I am not used to them! I never wear heels, so I have no issues with switching to flat shoes, but the lack of firm thick sole under my fingers was very unusual and after two days of wearing my Vibrams my feet were dead :D But it will get better, I am sure, and I will wear them as much as possible. And I will for sure buy more, to be able to get them on hikes too (I only own a basic pair of Jayas, they are cool for walking on a flat surface, but I can feel every stone I step on, lol). I walk every day to work from a bus stop. It is a short walk, I believe it is less than 500m, but the road is running through a field of sugar beet on one side and field of trees on the other side. It is very quiet there in the morning and you can see the sun on the horizon, lots and lots of trees (did you ever realize how many shades of green color we have and can see????) and you can clearly hear birds singing. I am enjoying these morning walks, walking slowly, listening to birds, looking around the landscape and I feel so calm and safe on the walk. I appreciate the sunlight, the cold wind that is running through my hair, grass that is bending its stalks in the wind, birds and butterflies that are flying above those fields and even though there is an ugly blue building at the end of this path (my workplace, not that it is ugly, but it doesn’t really fit in that landscape, haha) this morning walk always charges my batteries even more now that I am able to appreciate those small things. Mark Sisson in the book says: Everytime you walk the same walk, try to notice at least 20 things you didn’t notice last time you were walking that same walk. So I try to do it every morning and I am being amazed every time :)
I might really sound like a cliche freak, but since started reading Primal Connection, I really feel like I am happy to be alive, to have two strong feet I can stand on, I have two not so perfect eyes that are able to SEE every little thing around (okay, I am shortsighted, so probably every bigger thing around), I am grateful that I breath, I walk, I see, my heart is beating, my gut is working properly, I am loved and I love, I can smile and laugh, I can hear birds and music, I can sing to express myself, I can read wonderful stuff other people wrote, I can hug my boyfriend, I can call my mom. And even though I owe a lot of money to a bank, I don’t have my own place to live, my blender is broken, I don’t make much money, I have crooked teeth, I have big butt, I am not able to do 20 pushups in a row, I must wear glasses/contacts, I have no friends around me to visit, I live in a strange town far away from home, I can’t hug my mother every day, I can’t see my grandparents every week, I miss my loved ones so much and am not able to visit them more than three, four times a year, I am divorced, I wasn’t able to find a job for 5 months, I left the most beautiful apartment and a well-payed job behind and moved into a tiny town when they have NOTHING and pharmacy closes at 4pm, I still feel like I am the happiest girl in the whole world.
Lenny Kravitz in one of his songs sings: MY LIFE IS PERFECT, BECAUSE I ACCEPT IT AS IT IS.
So I think that’s it about that. :)